Don’t wanna…

Hay, daw natamad naman ko maghulag subong. Naku, ginhambalan ko ni Mumay nga may meeting ang marketing coordinators and sad to say, di ko mag attend. Ahahaha. Well, don’t wan to miss the UAAP game today noh.. Duh, I’ll be getting a lot of enjoyment and happiness watching my favorite teams play volleyball rather than listening to the many activities of the marketing team. Hehehe. At first, I was so excited to join the team. The word marketing coordinator sounds like a very distinguished name. Ahahaha. When my head told me that I’ll be the representative of our station, I never hesitated cause its an opportunity for me. But now, knowing that I had to divide my time for my work, my leisure and attend to my responsibility seems hard for me. Ahhh, I wish a had a substitute. I wish I did not commit myself to this. Well, I had to endure the many challenges of my responsibilities. But, I’m thinking of surrendering and quitting my job. It seems to be an extra load for me especially that I am one of the chosen who will be the core team in teaching the other participants in the Dinagyang parade to perforn in the streer dancing. Wish I could turn down the offer but I can’t. They are relying on us and the festival date is approaching. But I told Mumay that if ever she’ll be attending the meeting, she’ll let me know our part for the program. Ahaha. By the way, Mumay is my close friend and also a member of the marketing team. She’s convincing me to attend but I had to make an alibi cause I won’t be mssing the UAAP games this afternoon. Well, good luck to us and I hope I can make it. I told myself that I’ll be lending my time to them some other time but not today. Hehehe..

Just thinking….

As what I always said to myself, I should be honest and be me in front of the crowd. What you see is what you get as they say. hehehe.. So are you being the person you want the world to see you?! Well, let’s be real. There’s no need to pretend cause it will just make the situation worst. Hiding your true self to others will make things complicated. It will not help your cause. Your effort should be on how to deal with others and how you show them the real you. But on the other hand, I can’t blame other people who are still concealing the true identity inside them. It is a choice and a prerogative for them. Ahmmm, so be it a superficial way of expressing oneself or merely a disguise, it’s for us to determine and decipher what the other party is trying to implicate so as not to assume something and not be misunderstood also.

Getting started….

Happy new year to all.. yeah, I’ve started my Tumblr account and I’m excited to post my blogs here. hehehe. A friend of mine encouraged me to make an account and I was oblivious the first time. Well, there’s nothing wrong with posting your blogs here right, especially if it does not offend or hurt others and it’s not vulgar.

So, how should I start this? Ahmm, well it’s year 2010 already and I haven’t found the right one for me. Ahahaha.. I’m talking about the love of my life. It’s really hard to look for someone you’re compatible with. Someone who’s willing to accept you whatever and whoever you are. Guess that time seems to drift away from me. Maybe I’ll end up being single. Hehehe. I’ve tried courting but I ended up being heartbroken. Yeah, the feeling was so painful. Being rejected is one of my weaknesses and sometimes I told myself, I’d rather stay single and dreaming of my special someone alone. It’s sometimes a luxury to me secretly loving someone and not let her know it. And though it is hurting seeing someone with her, I rather like being numb about it and not think about it at all.

You? Have you met Mr or Ms Right?! Guess you should cause you don’t want to end up like me. Ah, I succumb myself to the painful truth of self-pity. The helplessness feeling seems to overcome my entire me. I feel like a soulless zombie walking this earth not knowing what to do or where to go. Huhuhu. But enough of this nonsense. I should put away all my guilt feelings and loneliness and start being optimistic and straightforward. The time for me will come and it will come in the most unexpected way. Only time will tell when will I’ll be happy and I should start thinking that it is only I who will make my world and life happy.

Bye for now. Till next time. Happy reading.

"Have no mercy!!!"